The Beautiful Moment : My Labour Story

Assalamualaikum lovelies :)

Alhamdulillah harini anakanda tercinta #wannaurasafeeya sudah mencecah 81 hari. A very good girl she is. Semoga kekal menjadi anak yang baik sampai bila-bila. Inshaa Allah.

Cepat je rasa masa berlalu. Rasa macam baru semalam saya melahirkan beliau. Dan saat melahirkan itu akan jadi saat yang tak akan saya lupakan selamanya.

(Be prepared for a very long entry.hehe)

6 January 2015 (Selasa)

At first, I thot I would deliver at 38 weeks (in Dec) sbb baca byk pengalaman bersalin anak pertama awal 2 minggu. Waited and waited until new year still xde tanda nak bersalin. So macam biasa pegi appointment for 39 weeks with Dr.Idora on this date. Dalam hati hopefully this will be the last appointment sbb dah tak larat nak bawak perut yang maha besar. Dr.Idora scanned and baby's weight stood at 3.45kg. Since saya ada GDM (diabetes during pregnancy), Dr.Idora suggested for me to be induced as she was concerned the baby might grow bigger and I would hv difficulties to push later. Hubster was too excited, he said yes before me! Doc kata anytime but not beyond 40 weeks. So Hubster kata kalo boleh nak deliver on Thursday (8 Jan) for cuti purposes actually (cuti ehsan company bagi 2 days). And so, Doc suruh admit tomorrow. Oh my! berdebar tak ingat dunia time tu. Balik rumah packing apa yang patut. Hospital bag dah letak dalam kereta since 7 months lagi. Then Mama asked me what else I craved so that she can cook for me before the big day. Nervous punya pasal dah takde selera makan. Malam tu pulun makan sago gula melaka yang sejukkk. Dap dap!

39 weeks & swollen

7 January 2015 (Rabu)

Pagi sebelum ke hospital saya makan roti bakar sekeping, telur separuh masak 2 biji and segelas milo campur butter. Untuk tenaga sebab jap lagi dah kena induce. Sampai hospital lebih kurang pukul 8.00 pagi. Usai registration, masuk dok diam dalam bilik. Nurse datang pasang meter to check contraction and check apa yang patut. Then dalam pukul 10.00am camtu Dr.Idora dtg. Saya ingat induce terus pakai drip. Rupanya masuk ubat ikut bawah. Huwaaaaa! Rasa macam nak tampar orang je bila ubat tu masuk ke dalam. Bukan apa, dia sakit2 ngilu. Huhu. Lepas masuk ubat tu ade la rasa contraction sket2. Tak intense pon. Sakit2 manja gitew. Chewah. Petang tu Dr.Idora dtg lagi cek bukaan. Bukak 1 cm je. Doc suruh tunggu lagi esok. Malam tu bleh tido macam biasa sebab tak sakit sgt lagi. Amalan surah Maryam dan bacaan doa Nabi Yunus tak putus2 sepanjang berada di wad.

8 January 2015 (Khamis)

Pagi Dr.Idora datang and sekali lagi cek jalan. Baru bukak 2cm. Ade improvements sket kata Dr.Idora. So dia masukkan 2nd dose ubat and huwaaaa lagi sekali. Setiap kali Doc datang setiap kali tu dia cek jalan. Berair mata dek non. Huhu. Ptg dia dtg bukaan dalam 3cm. So dia kata macam tak sempat je nak deliver harini sebab jalan baru bukak sikit. Untuk sampai 10cm lambat kata dia. Lagi2 first baby. So, untuk cepatkan bukaan apa lagi, saya tawaf satu hospital. Doc ade cakap kalau tak tahan sakit bleh mintak pain killer. Malam tu things a bit different dah saya rasa sebab macam tak boleh tidur sbb sakit macam makin kerap. Saya requested for pain killer (pethidine) for me to sleep sbb takut tak cukup tenaga nak push nnt. Nurse kata kalau nk inject kena trus masuk labour room dah and kena stay sampai delivery. Lepas masuk labour room, nurse cek bukaan and 4cm je br bukak. sakit macam apa pon br 4cm??? So she injected the pain killer and i can sleep tho dpt rasa contractions makin lama makin kerap.

9 January 2015 (Jumaat)

Contractions seemed to get intense. Pagi Doc datang cek bukaan dah masuk 4-5cm. This time baru dia pasang drip. She said by midnite inshaa Allah fully opened. Haih. Nak tunggu midnite tu Allah saja yang tau. Mama and Mommy (MIL) ada with me all the time. Usap kepala, usap perut. Hubster tak putus2 bacakan saya Surah Maryam. Mama pesan jangan putus baca doa Nabi Yunus (La Ilahailla Anta Subhanaka Inni Kuntu Minazzalimin) dan jangan lekang sebut Allah masa menahan contractions. Petang tu saya bagitau sakit sangat macam nak push. Nurse datang cek dia kata 5cm. I was like whattttt???? Bila Dr.Idora datang around 8-ish pm tu dia tanya saya taknak cuba epidural ke sbb bukaan saya lambat. I said NO. I wanna try the natural way. Dah tau dah what are the side effects so I better not taking any epis. Bila Doc cek bukaan rupanya dah 7cm. Doc kata nurse mesti salah estimate. She said patutla saya dah mula tak tahan sakit. So dia pecahkan air ketuban. I can feel macam lendir gitu dripping down under. Right after tu terus dapat rasakan contractions makin lama makin kerap. Doc cakap pakai gas kalau tak tahan sakit. Konon masa tu nak berlagak hero taknak guna bantuan gas but I surrendered. Sekarang baru saya tau macam mana sakit nak beranak yang sebenarnya. Patut la sebelum ni nurse cakap tu sakit main2 je. Belum nak beranak lagi.

Labour room & in pain

10 January 2015 (Saturday)

Seriously, the pain tu tak boleh nak diungkapkan dengan kata2. Rasa sakit memulas2 macam sembelit. Every contractions boleh rasa the baby was going down, mcm nak buang air besar mcm tu. Saya tak tahan saya ckp kt Mama saya nak push. Nurse datang lagi skali cek bukaan dah memang 10cm. Then dia call Dr.Idora. Alahai. Nak tggu Doc datang lamanya rasa. Saya cakap saya dah tak tahan betul so nurse silangkan kaki saya. Dalam 1/2 jam gitu barulah Doc sampai. Nurse tarik kaki saya and letak atas pedal untuk push. While Doc tgh bersiap pakai glove, mask etc, saya tanya "Dr, can i push now?" Dr.Idora cakap "jangan, nanti dulu". Kuasa Allah yang maha agung, bila datang contraction, baby meluncur keluar dengan sendiri tanpa saya push. Saya boleh nampak baby macam melayang keluar sekali dengan air ketuban. Dr.Idora tak sempat nak pakai apron plastik tu pon and nasib baik dia cekap sambut the baby. Alhamdulillah there she was. My baby. Born at 1.20am.

Fresh from the oven

Rasa macam mimpi je dah selamat bersalin. Since terlampau byk sgt sedut gas, rasa macam mamai je. Bila Doc letak the baby on my chest for the first time tu rasa macam high. Saya dgr Doc & nurses cakap congrats tp still mcm takleh register spa yang jadi sebenarnya. Effect gas tu. Dengan mata tak nampak lagi. Lepas dah siap Doc keluarkan uri & jahit tear, barulah saya macam sedar sket and Hubster letak the baby on my chest and baru nampak her clearly. Time tu saya rasa sebak sangat sampai saya menangis sebab bersyukur sgt dengan kurniaan Allah yang sgt2 indah buat kami sekeluarga.

Day 1 after shower

Terima kasih Allah untuk segalanya. Usaha dan doa kami selama ini Allah makbulkan jua. Akan kami jaga dan berikan kasih sayang sepenuhnya buat harta pinjaman Allah yang sementara ini.

Inshaa Allah :)

Juga saya doakan semoga rakan2 TTC yang masih berjuang supaya beroleh rezeki yang paling manis jua nanti. Jangan berhenti berharap. Sesungguhnya Allah mendengar dan maha mengetahui.

Day 80

Ibu & Naura

Borderline Term

Assalamualaikum lovelies

I reached 36 weeks today. It's the borderline term, medically speaking.

Baby stood at 2.5 kg during 34 weeks check-up. Dr.Idora suruh be extra careful because she said baby may grow up to 3.5kg when due. Takut susah nak push kata beliau sebab taktau lagi saya ni spesis senang bersalin ke tak.

Betul jugak kata Dr.Idora tu. Tapi macam mana nak be careful? Jaga makan kah? Macam tak boleh je. Lambat makan sikit je badan dah menggigil mcm nak pengsan. Lagi2 bila si kecik kat dalam keep on kicking non-stop. Huhu

I think she doesn't have enough space inside already. Her movements had slowed down and even she moves, can see from outside the tummy. Her papa lah orang paling excited bila the baby dok gerak and kick. Ibunya pasrah je walau sometimes bila dia kick, it landed on the bladder. Erkkk!

At 36 weeks, I feel super tired and went to sleep at around 9-ish daily. Tido malam kadang tak nyenyak sebab backpain and sakit around Miss V. Huhu. I feel super heavy and Hubster always teased me for waddling like a penguin. Suka hati ye!

Next check-up on 27 Dec 2014, at 37 weeks & 4 days. Thot of asking early leave from Dr.Idora sebab memang tak larat sangat bawak perut & badan yang makin lama makin memberat.

Makin dekat makin la resah. Peluh sejuk. Takut pon ada. Nervous sebab taktau macam mana pengalaman bersalin saya nanti. Semoga Allah permudahkan segalanya. Insya Allah :)

Meet my Baby N :)

Nazar

Assalamualaikum lovelies :)

Tetiba macam teringat nak citer pasal nazar. 

Dulu masa sebelum pregnant, pernah saya keluarkan hasrat pada Hubster nak bagi anak yatim pulut kuning kalau Allah bagi saya rezeki anak. So, technically that hasrat constitutes nazar lah kan?

Lama dah saya buat nazar tu. Months and months before I was pregnant. Sampai dah lupa.

Satu hari tu while I was in the car with Hubster, Allah nak bagi saya petunjuk. Ada bas rumah anak-anak yatim kat sebelah kami. Terus saya teringat yang saya pernah bernazar nak bagi anak-anak yatim makan pulut kuning tu. Tak silap saya masa tu I was about 3-4 months pregnant. Punyalah pelupa.

Balik rumah terus call Mama bagitau pasal nazar saya. Mama cakap boleh je bagi kat anak yatim mana-mana pon and tak semestinya saya kena bagi sendiri. Asalkan bagi anak-anak yatim and tunaikan nazar saya tu.  Mula-mula saya nak buat sendiri kat KL ni tapi mcm taktau mcm mana nak proceed. So saya mintak tolong my eldest sister, Kak Long to arrange for packed pulut kuning. Nasib baik dia ramai contact kat KB sana. 

Alhamdulillah nazar saya tertunai jua. Mama and Kak Long tolong saya pergi distribute sendiri ke rumah anak-anak yatim. 

Rasa macam lega sangat lepas tunaikan nazar. Bayar hutang pon tak rasa lega macam ni. 

Maha Suci Allah bagi saya petunjuk haritu. Syukur Allah masih ingatkan saya. 

Harapan saya semoga perjalanan kandungan saya diredhai Allah dan dipermudahkan segalanya. Insya Allah.

29 Weeks and Counting

Assalamualaikum semua.

*Tiup blog bersawang*

Wowww... the last blog entry i wrote was like 9 weeks ago! Shame shame. Orang nak ade blog, kita pon nak jugak tapi pemalas nak up entry. Bahaha

OKlah... my story takde benda lain nak cite. About my pregnancy journey je. Gigih kat instagram pon nak letak hashtag #jeespregnancyjourney. Bukan apa, esok2 senang nak trace balik mcm mana rupa time pregnant. Buat gambar sebelum selepas. Kot2 la lepas deliver nanti masih tersimpan extra berbelas2 kg tu. Uhuk!

Btw, I am at 29 weeks now and in my 3rd trimester. Whatttt???

Getting nervous and excited all at the same time. Alhamdulillah baby is doing fine and I am expecting a GIRL! Insya Allah.

Last check-up masa 27 weeks, lil bub weighs about 1.064kg, in line with her growth chart. Finally ibu & papa was able to see a glimpse of her features. Sebak tetiba. Subhanallah. I can finally see what's inside me. The miracle that Allah gave us after a long wait.

Lil bub at 27 weeks

As for me, I gained a whooping 12kgs now. Sob sob sob. My back is aching so badly. The face, hands and feet swollen 'beautifully". LOL. I have sleeping problems too but now no more since dah beli maternity pillow yang super best! Hubster panggil bantal ular sebab dia panjang berlingkar. Best gils tdo memalam. Nyenyak tdo tp mcm biasalah in between tu mesti nak ke toilet a few times. A price you have to pay to be to be a mommy but it's OK, I'm enjoying every tiny seconds of it :)

Tuan tanah 22 weeks vs 28 weeks

Within the past 9 weeks, I've been to Bali (delayed honeymoon dah jadik babymoon) and also Jakarta (mak buyung shopping tak hengat). I'll write about both holidays soon.

Bye for now. 

Muahhhh :)

Ceritera 20 Weeks

Assalamualaikum lovelies :)

Apa khabar everyone? Missing me? *silamuntah* perasan walaupon takde ramai followers. lol

Alhamdulillah sekarang sudah 20 minggu atau boleh dikataan sudah menginjak ke bulan ke-5. Rasa macam baru je tau pregnant. Pejam celik pejam celik dah separuh jalan menuju ke 40 minggu. Mula rasa debaran. Uhuk!

OKlah nak cite pengalaman jumpa gynea bersalin. Masa last appointment with Dr. Adilah dah bagitau dia siap2 nak bersalin dgn Dr. Idora so she referred me terus ke klinik Dr. Idora. According to her I could set appointment in 4 to 5 weeks. So call lah gitu gini dapat appointment on 11 August 2014.

Nervous jgk nak jmpa Dr. Idora ni. Tanya kawan2 mmg semua kata Dr. Idora ni very nice gynea. Klinik beliau di floor yang sama dengan Dr. Adilah tapi ke dalam sikit. So hari appointment tu pukul 8.30am saya dah smp ke kaunter. Dr masuk pukul 10.00am. Kemain dtg awal sbb takut org ramai. Alhamdulillah dapat No.2. Just to alert, memang kena menunggu lama ye kawan2. Sebab tu sy tak kisah dtg awal sbb malas nk menunggu lama2. 

Haritu Dr masuk lambat gak dalam 10.30am gitu. Rezeki saya patient No.1 takde so saya la dapat masuk dulu. Dr. Idora is a very very nice lady. She speaks softly and bagi thorough explanation. She showed me every angle of the baby, measured all the bones, limbs and informed me that the baby grows proportionately according to his/her age i.e masa tu dalam 17-18 weeks.

Sebak sangat bila dapat tgk baby gerak2 bila Dr. moves the ultrasound device on my tummy. Hubster takde teman saya haritu sebab dia kena kerja, tak dapat elak. Kalau tak dia pon nanti mengalir air mata tgk. Mind u my husband has a soft heart. Hahaha

Saya tanya Dr. boleh tau gender ke tak? Dr kata too early to tell sub too small but she tried to find it anyhow. I can see the baby moved his/her legs when Dr. cuba kacau2 on the tummy. Pastu dia stop & still kepit both legs. Dr. laughed and said "your baby is so shy".

Hmmm...Takpelah. next check up kita cuba lagi ye sayang?

Before balik Dr. showed me the baby's growth chart and the measurement of every parts. He/she is just 158grams at that time. Too small and tiny!

I also got his/her 4D picture tapi facing down, showing his/her butt to ibu. Malu-malu kucing plak dia ye!

To-date, I've gained a whooping 5kgs! Thanks to the food cravings and munchings! My tummy is getting bigger too. Baru feeling preggy now. Syukur dengan kurniaan Allah ini. Thot I wld never have the chance to get pregnant and Allah finally granted me this greatest feeling on earth.

I am gonna be 21 weeks this coming Tuesday. I can feel butterflies in my stomach and rata2 my friends said it's the early sign of baby kicking. 

Blessed.

Syukur Alhamdulillah. Harap semuanya berjalan lancar dan dipermudahkan.

Insya Allah :)

Nota kaki : To all my TTC friends, I never stop praying for you guys, hoping to hear good news everyday. Remember, Allah is the best planner of all. Patience is what it takes. Love you all to the moon and back. *Hugs*

Eid Mubarak 1435H

Assalamualaikum my lovely friends.

Still not to late to wish you all Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir Batin. Maaf juga andai ade terkasar bahasa, terguris hati dan segala ter lah. Hehe.

Tahun ni saya raya di Penang dulu, belah Hubster. Kemudian balik ke KB raya ke-3. Balik ke KL semula hari Isnin raya ke-8 sebab nak elak jam punya pasal.

Tahun ni tema kami emerald green, pilihan Hubster terchenta. Layankan aje lah so beli baju melayu dan baju saya dari kain yang sama. Hubster kata color mesti satu tone and from the same kain, barulah sedondon namanya. Apa2 lah syg.

Tahun ni juga sudah tiada segala soalan-soalan cepumas yang menyakitkan hati jiwa raga seperti tahun2 lepas. Ditukar dgn soalan "dah berapa bulan?", "bila due?", "dah tau ke boy or girl?" etc.

Alhamdulillah untuk segalanya ya Allah. Tahun ni kami beraya berdua dan half baked in the oven :)

Tahun depan, insya Allah bertiga pula.

Semoga segalanya dipermudahkan. Insya Allah

13 Weeks

Assalamualaikum.

I hope it's not too late to wish Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. Sedar tak sedar harini dah masuk hari ke 13 kita semua umat Islam berpuasa. Alhamdulillah. Semoga Ramadhan kali ini kita semua dapat mempertingkatkan lagi ibadah kepadaNya. Insya Allah.

Praised to Allah too that this week my pregnancy has reached its 13th week and I am officially off the 1st trimester. Syukur Ya Allah. All the morning sickness has long gone, had it only for the first few weeks I knew I was pregnant. However, the craving is still ON as usual. I had cravings like laksa penang and most of the time I like to eat pasta! Before pregnant I'm not a big fan of pasta and surprisingly I am now!! Hehehehe :)

Last Wednesday (9 July 2014) was my last appointment with Dr. Adilah Ahmat. She took care of me for the last 7 weeks to ensure that my baby is ok. Biasa la kan. I am a PCOS patient so the risk of getting miscarriage is higher and maximum care is required masa 1st trimester. Syukur Alhamdulillah Allah made it easy for me and baby. 

Sedih sangat nak berpisah dengan Dr.Adilah. I have been with her since November 2012 ever since I started my fertility treatment. She's a doctor with full package; pretty, smart & nice, all grouped into one. Before the end of the consultation Dr. Adilah nasihat suruh breastfeed baby walau mcm manapun and she then terus refer me to Dr. Edora, whom I will see in 3 to 4 weeks time for my antenatal check-up and Insya Allah soon, deliver.

Sebelum keluar bilik doktor tu sempat amik gambar dulu buat kenang-kenangan dengan the pretty doctor.

Please excuse my super chubby look! lol

And the baby??? Yeah, he/she is super healthy! Loooookkk!!

Semoga perjalanan kandungan saya dipermudahkan Allah. Insya Allah :)

p/s : kepada kawan2 TTC, saya sentiasa doakan kalian akan dikurniakan zuriat juga suatu hari nanti. Have faith in Allah. He is indeed the best planner of all !!

4 Wonderful Years

Alhamdulillah harini genap 4 tahun usia perkahwinan saya dan suami. 

Thank you for the wonderful adventure, Hubster. I hope to have many more years of great adventure ahead, joy, happiness and neverending life's good things. Thank you for patiently keeping up with my tantrums, whims and fancies. Even though, there be rough rides for us throughout the 4 years but I'm glad we've made it through.

Syukur juga di atas kurniaan Allah paling tidak ternilai pada kami berdua. Alhamdulillah I am now 2 months pregnant! Syukur syukur syukur yang tak terhingga. Akhirnya Allah makbulkan doa kami setelah 4 tahun menunggu dengan sabar. Allah Maha Besar, saya berjaya mengandung naturally. I have stopped treatment with Dr.Adilah snce October last year and in March I embarked on healthy diet and lifestyle which ended up me losing 8 kgs. In April I went to a homeopathy centre in Kelana Jaya (read about it from fellow blogger, Yannie of Idreamoflittlebunnies). Alhamdulillah on 27 May 2014, I was confirmed pregnant. I will share about that homeopathy centre in my next post ya!

Happy Anniversary, Hubster! I love you endlessly till Jannah :)

Doakan semoga Allah permudahkan segalanya untuk kami berdua dan semoga Baby saya sihat dan selamat dilahirkan kelak.

Insya Allah :)

Bimbang

Harini saya dah CD31. Patut Cik Red Flag datang menyapa semalam ikut kira2 nya lah. Biasa sebelum ia datang mcm seminggu sebelum camtu, saya akan rasa sore breasts. Memang itulah symptomnya. Setiap kali Cik Red Flag nak datang ziarah. Tapi kali ni takde rasa pape. Saya risau period cycle sy kembali tak normal. Macam dulu. Huhu.

Saya baru nak start balik with Dr.Adilah untuk next cycle tapi mcm mana ni. Saya rasa nak tggu lagi seminggu tengok cemana. Kalau still tak datang jugak kenalah lah saya pergi balik jumpa Dr.Adilah. Matilah kena lecture panjang lebar. Yelah. Sebelum ni kemain beria sukahati period cycle dah kembali normal tanpa medication. Tapi sekarang belum sempat habis treatment dah nak jadi camni.  

Risau lah. Ada tak kwn2 yang problem macam saya ni? HELPPPP!!!

Isu Anak & Poligami

Sekarang ni tengah heboh cerita poligami Asyraf Muslim. I feel pity for his first wife, Dayana. From what I've read, sebab utama poligami adalah faktor ketiadaan anak. Sensitif sangat. Kalau sebab anak, suami nak kawen lain memang agak sedih la bagi isteri pertama. Nikah pula di Thailand sana. Beritahu isteri pertama pon tidak. Tambahan, diketahui melalui flight itinerary. Jika kita berada di tempat Dayana ketika itu, hancur luluh hati kita bukan? Tapi siapa kita untuk menghakimi? 

Saya dan teman ofis memang selalu follow cerita Asyraf Muslim ni. Makcik kepoh sangat. Apakan daya interesting story must be shared. Haha. 

Saya dah 3 tahun kawen. Mencuba dan terus mencuba. Tapi apakan daya. Allah masih belum bagi rezeki ke arah itu. Saya pernah bincang isu Asyraf Muslim berpoligami sebab anak bersama Hubster. Respons Hubster mudah. Jangan fikir sangat. Yang penting dia cinta saya selamanya walau kami ditakdirkan tiada anak. Sebak tetiba. Airmata laju je mengalir. Hubster memang terlalu sayangkan saya. Berulangkali dia cakap dia tak pernah kisah kalau kami tiada anak. Tapi saya tau jauh di sudut hati, beliau memang inginkan anak. Sapa dalam dunia ni tak maukan anak kandung sendiri? Hubster pernah beritahu dia ok kalau kami nak amik anak angkat. Dia kata dia tggu green light saya aje. Tapi ibubapa kami membantah. Saya juga belum sedia untuk amik anak angkat. Kalau boleh masih mahu mencuba. Syukur saya dikurniakan suami yang begitu memahami. Beliau tak pernah jemu sayang dan cintakan saya. Terlalu protective, sehinggakan saya tak dibenarkan memandu sendiri if he's around. 

Insya Allah lepas raya will resume treatment with Dr Adilah Ahmat again. I stopped seeing her for the last 2 cycles sebab badan naik mendadak gara2 ubat subur. Sebelum ni Dr Adilah selalu kasik Duphastone to regularize my period cycles. Last 2 cycles, I stopped taking them and alhamdulillah period OK and the cycle is getting better each month. Previously, my cycle would be 33-35 days (with Duphastone) but now around 28-30 days (without Duphastone). Alhamdulillah berkat usaha buat Laps and ovary drilling haritu agaknya. Mengikut Period Planner which I installed in my phone, the next period would be on the 7th of August 2013. 

Bulan ni masih lagi menunggu ketibaan berita gembira. Manalah tau rezeki bulan Ramadhan. Hikhik.

Oklah. Nak continue kerja. Nanti kena chop makan gaji buta pula. Sudahnya, bonus akhir tahun kena slashed. Nauzubillah!

Bye.

TTC oh TTC

Hari ni baru discover term baru TTC (Trying to Conceive). Siap google okeh. Gigih tak gigih. It started with a comment by Kekda aka Puan Stoberi of which she informed of her TTC problem. Puas jugak teka apa tu TTC tapi tak jumpa. Last-last google jugak saya cari. 

Bila google je terus keluar blog list yang ade entry pasal TTC and I found out that ramai blogger lain yang mengalami nasib yang sama macam saya. Cuba berusaha untuk mendapatkan cahaya mata. 

Salam perkenalan untuk kawan-kawan baru saya. Kalau follow saya terima kasih saya ucapkan. Belog picisan. Belum tentu ada yang membaca. Suka bila ada somebody else with the same problem. At least boleh share sesama experience.

Teruja!

Operation Theatre

Hello lovelies

It's been a while now since I last blogged. I miss my blog tho but you know-lah when the M word strikes, everything is not doable.

Remember I told you last time that I am having Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)? Well, you can read it HERE. My gynea suggested for me to undergo a surgery to clear the PCOS and to increase the chance of getting pregnant but I insisted on doing it the natural way i.e taking hormones medicines such as Duphaston and Clomid as well as visiting the gynea regularly. After 2 months of trying, the result was disappointing. So, I made up my mind to go with the surgery. This is where the sacrifice was made.

The date was set to be on the 19th of April 2013, on a Friday afternoon at 2.00pm. I was admitted on the same day of the surgery, about 10.00am. Around 1.30pm, after wearing the surgery gown, I was sent to the OT room. Tuhan saja yang tau betapa takutnya saya waktu itu. Mama pesan suruh baca surah Al-Masad byk2 sebab Mama cakap surah ni boleh kurangkan rasa sakit lepas surgery. Pastu selawat byk2. I did!

Keadaan OT room teramatlah sejuk. Macam duduk dalam igloo. Propa kan? padahal tak penah pegi pon semenjak hidup ni. Dahla sampai dalam, surgery gown kena bukak. Just a piece of blanket on top my body. Sejuk! Brrrrr!!!

I was greeted by a bunch of nurses and soon the anesthetician, Dr. Nazri followed by my gynea. Dr. Nazri buat keje cepat. Sambil dia nak cucuk vain, sambil bincang pasal politic. Ngeri betul lah. Mana tau tersalah cucuk vain mau pengsan x payah pakai ubat bius. Tapi dah namanya pakar, so he did what he does best. Sekejap je rasa jarum menusuk. Ouchhh! Then the nurse bagi oxygen mask with the ubat bius lah. Dalam 3 kali sedut kot dah kiok. Tau2 nurse dah kejut panggil my name. Time tu mcm lali2, ingat tak ingat and still macam weng. Habis operation dalam pukul 5.00pm and I was down until 9.30pm. Barulah boleh bukak mata and I saw  Hubster by my side with a bouquet of flowers! Auwwwww... 

That night, I threw up about 2 or 3 times. It was the aftermath of the ubat bius. Nasib baik the day before I fasted. So takdela madam keluar macam2. Alhamdulillah, the pain was manageable and there were 3 holes on my stomach. My gynea, Dr.Adilah came to explain the next day. She said the right tube was blocked and the hole was too small. Memang tersumbat betul. Serviks cantik, in good condition. The left ovary is a bit far behind tapi it's not an uncommon thing. So what they did was, they clear the tube, followed by ovarian drilling to clear the PCOS. Dr. Adilah said, lepas test cecair biru dibuat, both tubes now in good condition. Alhamdulillah. 

Dr.Adilah also found out that usus saya melekat ke dinding. They tried to buang lekatan tu masa surgery tapi halfway through there was bleeding so they stopped. She advised me to watch over my food intake and also my sleeping position, kena mengiring ke kanan.

Today I went to see her at the hospital for Post-Operation Review. I asked her the cause of the colon problem. She said that it might be because of the bacterial infection, which blocked the right tube. Dia kacau la usus tu jadi sampai terlekat sedemikian rupa. Nasib baik sedar awal. Kalau tak, taktau ape jadi. So, she gave me few medicines, most of them antibiotics to cure the bacterial infection. The medications gave me drowsiness, dizziness and I tend to throw up a few times. 

I'm now on MC for 3 weeks or 22 days to be exact, from 19 April 2013 until 10 May 2013.

Alhamdulillah is the only word I keep on uttering, to show how gratitude I am to Allah for making this journey of mine so smooth and I have the best support system I could ever wished for. Mama, my family and especially my husband were with me all this time. Alhamdulillah too because I have the best company who paid all the medical bills. Tengok balik jumlah tu, memang saya tak mampu nak bayar.

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

Semoga segalanya dipermudahkan Allah di masa hadapan and semoga usaha dan doa kami dimakbulkan Allah. Insya Allah.

Nota Kaki : My gynea has her own BLOG. For those who would like to seek treatment with her, it is highly recommended.