Borderline Term

Assalamualaikum lovelies

I reached 36 weeks today. It's the borderline term, medically speaking.

Baby stood at 2.5 kg during 34 weeks check-up. Dr.Idora suruh be extra careful because she said baby may grow up to 3.5kg when due. Takut susah nak push kata beliau sebab taktau lagi saya ni spesis senang bersalin ke tak.

Betul jugak kata Dr.Idora tu. Tapi macam mana nak be careful? Jaga makan kah? Macam tak boleh je. Lambat makan sikit je badan dah menggigil mcm nak pengsan. Lagi2 bila si kecik kat dalam keep on kicking non-stop. Huhu

I think she doesn't have enough space inside already. Her movements had slowed down and even she moves, can see from outside the tummy. Her papa lah orang paling excited bila the baby dok gerak and kick. Ibunya pasrah je walau sometimes bila dia kick, it landed on the bladder. Erkkk!

At 36 weeks, I feel super tired and went to sleep at around 9-ish daily. Tido malam kadang tak nyenyak sebab backpain and sakit around Miss V. Huhu. I feel super heavy and Hubster always teased me for waddling like a penguin. Suka hati ye!

Next check-up on 27 Dec 2014, at 37 weeks & 4 days. Thot of asking early leave from Dr.Idora sebab memang tak larat sangat bawak perut & badan yang makin lama makin memberat.

Makin dekat makin la resah. Peluh sejuk. Takut pon ada. Nervous sebab taktau macam mana pengalaman bersalin saya nanti. Semoga Allah permudahkan segalanya. Insya Allah :)

Meet my Baby N :)

Welcome 2013

Busuk tak baru nak ucap Happy New Year 2013 walaupon hari ini hari ke-13 di bulan Februari. Yes, bulan Februari baru terhegeh-hegeh nak up entry new year. Padahal orang dah nak ucap Happy New Year 2014. Ihiks! Ampun ya bukkk!

Bermacam blog entries, FB, Twitter and IG posts yang telah saya baca mengenai warna-warni perjalanan 2012 kawan-kawan dan kaum keluarga. So it's time for me to write down my journey throughout 2012.

Earlier in 2012, I had written a few of my goals and to recap, here are the list:

1. To lose weight - checked

(i've shredded some kilos but i gained some.haha!)

2. To get pregnant - unsuccessful

(i've consulted a gynea and is under treatment now. u can refer my story here)

3. To buy a house, pretty enough to be our love nest - checked

(i've officially moved into our own house on 1 Oct 2012)

4. To save as much as I could - unsuccessful

(i've to korek all the savings to furnish the house we just bought. to start from scratch, bring forward to 2013 resolution)

5. To go to the gym frequently - checked

(i could say i'm proud of myself as i managed to hit the gym every week in 2012 with my gym buddy, Ieka Kassim)

6. To work harder, be more focused & received good PRIME (appraisal) - checked

(alhamdulillah for the rezeki God has given & managed to maintain my PRIME

7. Last but not least, to be a good, obedient wife, daughter, sister, aunty and insya Allah a caring & lovely mother - unsure (but Hubster said I scored! except for the lovely mother part!)

So for 2013, I had high hopes. I want to gain more for everything (except for weight lay, of course la nak reduce). Let's see if these resolutions become reality this year:

1. To get pregnant

(my ultimate goal for 2013. Insya Allah. I'm praying hard for this!)

2. To lose weight (again & again & again)

(to achieve this, must force myself to hit the gym!)

3. To be a better muslimah

(No more tudung singkat-taktutup-dada for me as Hubster dah larang. So, I obeyed :) )

3. To furnish the house

(macam2 benda nak beli!)

4. To save as much as I could

5. To join at least 1 baking class and to try more and more new recipes

6. To maintain 2012's resolution for item 6 & 7 above :)

Oh ye. Lupa nak citer pasal bonus 2012 haritu. Kan ade 2 barang yang saya aim; satu Kitchenaid lagi satu Candy Bag. Well, both I didn't get. Instead, I scored this! 

Awesome kan? Memang best and puas hati tapi tang Candy Bag tu je la tak merasa lagi. Haih! Aim for this year plak! Insya Allah :)

Okla for now. Till the next entry.

Toodles!

Kasih Papa Tiada Penghujung

25 November 2012. Genap 1 tahun Papa pergi tinggalkan kami sekeluarga mengadap Sang Pencipta. Rasa seperti baru semalam Papa pergi. Ini bermaksud sudah 365 hari. Suatu waktu yang cukup panjang.

Walau Papa tiada, memori beliau tetap utuh bertakhta di dalam fikiran kami sekeluarga. Tiada siapa dapat menggantikan beliau, our greatest hero. Terlalu singkat Allah berikan masa pada saya untuk bersama Papa. Hanya selama 27 tahun. 

Papa adalah seorg yang sangat penyayang, terlalu memanjakan kami adik beradik, especially me. Being the youngest, Papa selalu memberikan apa yang sy mahu. Kehidupan kami sekeluarga tidak senang dan tidak susah tetapi Papa telah menjadikan ianya satu kisah kehidupan yang amat manis untuk kami kenang. Teringat ms zaman sekolah, saya tidak pernah berpeluang untuk menyertai school's play sebab kena bayar harga kostum. Hanya RM10 diperlukan tetapi Papa tidak suka membazir ke arah itu. Bagi Papa RM10 waktu itu adalah satu jumlah yang agak besar, boleh digunakan untuk membeli lauk harian sebagai makanan sekeluarga. Kalau saya mahu beli buku atau makanan, Papa akan segera memberi. Papa mahu kami semua berjaya dan mengubah kehidupan kami sekeluarga. Papa cakap, belajar rajin2 sampai ke universiti, nanti boleh beli rumah cantik dan pakai kereta besar. Kalau dah berjaya, ada duit nanti boleh beli apa sahaja yang yang saya mahu. Alhamdulillah, Papa sempat lihat kami adik beradik berjaya tetapi Papa tidak sempat lihat rumah baru saya, yang dibeli hasil titik peluh sendiri. 

Papa ternyata seorang ayah yang sangat penyabar. He is indeed one of a kind. Tidak pernah sekali Papa 'naik tangan' pada kami adik beradik perempuan. He taught us well,  I suppose. Alhamdulillah, saya syukur sebab Papa gave us pendidikan agama yang cukup. For some areas which I dun really sure, Papa would always be the point of reference. Dua tahun lepas, Papa sendiri telah menikahkan saya tetapi saya tidak tahu bahawa tahun berikutnya dia akan pergi buat selamanya. Syukur juga dikurniakan suami yang begitu menyayangi, sehebat kasih sayang Papa pada saya. 

Terlalu banyak cerita untuk dikongsi tentang Papa. Tulisan berkajang2 pon belum tentu memadai. Cukuplah sekadar berkongsi cerita untuk dikenang bersama, selamanya.

Dear Papa, you are my greatest hero. The only one who never looked down on me, giving and showering me with your endless love. I love you so much and I won't stop missing you forever. Semoga Papa ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yang beriman. Till we meet again in Jannah, Pa. Insya Allah.

Cerita Weekend Lepas

Last weekend ade small reunion MRSM QBER. Itu nama glamer. Nama panjang adalah MRSM Kuala Berang. Kali ini giliran rumah Danee,my bestie di Sri Lojing,Wangsa Maju. Giliran rumah saya? Entah bila. Sbb rumah baru tak tau lagi bila dapat kunci. sobsobsob

Apa pun, last weekend hati sgt girang kerna jumpa sahabat lama. Antara yang hadir ialah Pieyja (tukang masak of the day) dan che Abe, Anis (penolong tukang masak), Kak Dyqq (tukang basuh pinggan), Nonie (tukang atur meja), Azhar Saffuan (penyakat tegar), Nije (beliau adalah seorang pemandu kapal terbang) dan saya suami isteri. Main dish Pieyja yang masak. Banyak lauk tp lupa nak snap. Ada ikan siakap stim, tomyam putih, paprik ayam dan udang goreng tepung. Saya hanya bawa dessert. Kek Batik dan juga Oreo Cheesecake. Keduanya juga saya lupa untuk ambil gambar. Piey-Ja ada bawa dessert, apam cornetto with chocolate ganache yang sgt sedap. Jangan tanya mana gambar sbb sy juga lupa nak snap..hahaha *sila bagi penampar kapit*

Zaman sekolah paling seronok. Kami berkongsi banyak suka duka bersama-sama. Paling best, si Pieyja banyak simpan cerita. Her memory capacity macam hard disc dengan storage sebesar 2 Terabyte. haha. Pieyja sila jangan marah. Banyak sesi refresh memories. Tak caya tengok saja gambar di bawah. Lagak serupa geng Mak Jemah bergosip. 

Ada Nonie, Anis, Pieyja & tuan rumah, Danee (sila ikut clockwise)

Sepanjang di rumah Danee, tak kering gusi bergelak ketawa. Terutamanya ketika mengenang zaman persekolahan kami. Paling banyak contribute cerita sapa lagi kalau bukan si Pieyja. Tukang menyakat of the day tak lain tak bukan, Encik Azhar Saffuan atau nama timangan zaman sekolah beliau iaitu ZEM. Ada kisah di sebalik nama itu tapi aku tak penah tau. Danee dengan usaha yang jitu masih berusaha untuk decipher apa maksud di sebalik abjad-abjad Z.E.M. Teruskan usaha wahai sayangku Danee :) Sesi kali ini tanpa Bestie tersayang, Mimiey yang berada nun jauh di UK menimba ilmu. Juga ketiadaan Tommy Nadia yang berada di luar kawasan. Sesi berikutnya pada June di rumah Huda yang cantik mantik itu. Tidak sabar. Mau buat dessert lain pulak :)

Selesai makan, gosip, mengutuk dan mengata, makanya haruslah ade gambar sebagai kenangan.

Kawan-kawan yang amat saya sayangi :)

Hanya dua kawan lelaki yang hadir. Kiri itu NIJE dan kanan itu ZEM.

Ini tuan rumah

Itu ZEM menumpang kasih pada Encik Suami sbb isteri beliau masih di kampung berpantang :)

Harus juga melakukan sesi enterprem.

Terima kasih untuk host untuk hari itu, Puan Edani dan Encik Amir for such a kind hospitality dan rumah yang sgt cantik. Selesai sesi makan-makan di rumah Danee, kami berdua memecut ke IKEA jumpa keluarga mentua. Tapi sebelum tu harus juga pukul gambar untuk kenangan bersama dan memenuhkan memory iphone saya. Hiks...

Theme hari itu adalah biru dan pink fuchsia..pilihan saya :)

Esok kena jumpa Boss segala Boss. Hati gundah dan risau. Makanya saya berundur dulu. Good nite!

Papa Warded

Yesterday, I received a call from Kak Long telling me that Papa has been warded due to Dengue fever. It was quite a shock for me and I almost took leave to go home to Kota Bharu but Papa said I need not to worry. He is still ok. According to Kak Long, Papa's platlet has dropped rapidly from 100+ to below 40 since last night. That is why he was admitted. Me and Kakak were both worry that anything will happen to Papa. We also take turns to call him asking about his current condition. When I called him last night, I almost cry because Papa said to me like this:

"Jee jangan risau.. Papa ok lagi, still boleh bangun dan jalan. Jee doakan Papa cepat sembuh la ye. Jee pon jaga diri baik2. Papa sayang Jee.."

I love Papa so much. In fact, among 3 of us, I'm the one who is so manja with him. When I was small, I used to sleep on his arm and whenever I fell asleep in front of the tv, then he would carry me to bed. I also remember back then when I was still schooling that Papa would wait for me to finish homework late at night. I will always have that in my mind. Papa likes to pamper the three of us. He loves us so much and in fact he never pukul us or did anything that involves that act to us. If he is angry with us, he'll talk to us and ask us to repair our wrongdoings.. Papa will never increase his voice volume to us. He's such a nice and cool guy.

Now, since Papa is already 66 years old, his health condition has started to deteriorate. He loves gardening and every single evening, he will spend most of his time at our garden around the house. He likes to do all the activities that will make him sweat. However, ever since he had an eye operation about 2 to 3 years ago, his activity was limited. His intake of food also need to be monitored. One thing about my Papa that I will always store in my mind is that he loves to play with my hair and caress my forehead everytime I sat beside him. He never failed to do that to me. As the youngest in the family, I am the one who's been pampered so much. Pampering not in the concept of material but through his love and affectionate toward us all. That is the greatest treasure that I will always store in my heart and also in my mind.

I always worry that something will happen to my beloved Papa. Up until this hour, I never forget to call him to ask for his condition. Alhamdulillah syukur that he said his number of platlet is increasing. I will never stop praying for his health and well-being. Not only because he is my father but because he is MY ONLY PAPA in this world.

I LOVE U, PAPA! =)

Remembrance

Hey you dear squigglers!!

Yesterday was my lil niece 5th birthday, AMNEE QYSTEENA THE PRINCESS.. She has been waiting for the big day since last 2 months. Thank God the day has finally materialized itself yesterday. If not, I would be the person who needs to answer all her nerve wrecking questions like:

AMNEE: Che Su, esok ke birthday Amnee?
ME: X la.. lagi 2 bulan
AMNEE: Lagi 2 bulan tu bile?
ME: Ala...bulan ni, bulan depan and then bulan lagi satu..
AMNEE: (pause to think) tp bile Che Su??
ME: (dunno how to explain lagi) Nanti Amne tido, pastu bgn, tido lagi, bangun lagi, pastu birthday amnee la..
AMNEE: X lama lagi dah??
ME: A'ah..
AMNEE: yey!!

That was the type or question or more or less like it that i had to endeavour since the past 2 months..Huhuhu.. Whatever it is, as the holder of the title "BEST CHESU IN THE UNIVERSE", I did not bother to answer all her silly and repeated questions on the topic of "When Is My Birthday?" and more importantly, I answered it with great enthusiast.. When it comes to my lil nieces and nephews, my heart melts and I would rather do anything to them.. I loved them soo much. Sometimes, my 2 sisters scold me for pampering them soo much.. When they don't get what they want from their mothers, they would run and ask from me becos they know that CheSu will give them anyway.. I don't intend to spoil them with all monies, gifts, chocolates, sweets, lollipops etc but I can't bear to see their dissapointed faces.. That is one of my weaknesses. Terrible as it sound ey?hehe =).. I'm planning to get all of them something for this Raya but my mum, as usual la, will go barking to me like this:

"Wak gapo nok beli bare2 ko budok2 tu nyoh?? Jee keh x make gaji lagi.. baru chambering jah..gaji pong RM900 jah.. Baju rayo jee pong Mama beli lagi tau?? X payoh dok bazir duit laaaaaaa!!"
(this is Kelantanese dialect, for those of u who need translation, let me know ok!)

Hehe.. =) Funny la my mum.. I know she is being concern but don't worry Mama, I still have enuff money to spend.. Since sekarang ni tengah sale, so I plan nak cari barang sket kat either Sogo or JJ.. I have something vague in my mind but I still don't know what exactly I'm gonna get for my 5 cute lil tots.. =p

Orait.. back to the original topic as the above title.. (hehe.. a bit misdiverting, i guess!)

Amnee will have her birthday bash aka party at her kindergarten today (Tadika Seaport). Of course she'll be super excited.. So, yesterday evening, I went out to Toys R Us at Subang Parade to buy some stuffs for the party. Since the theme is "The Fairy Tale Princess", every single item must bear the picture or resemblance of a princess character even the party pack has the picture of Fairy Tale Princesses on it.. Knowing my niece, she is uber obsessed with the Fairy Tale Princesses and she even considers herself as Princess Aurora.. Kids!! After we found all the items needed, we then headed to Mc Donalds to have our dinner.. Yummy!! I don't know why these days I always feel hungry..Maybe it's the job or the stress at work.. Ish!! Bahaya la asyik makan jek!! Mau badan aku naik berkilo2...Huhuhu!! X suke!X suke!X suke!

Later, at home, I started to put all the items into the party pack which consists of a Cadbury Bites, a Looney Tunes Wafer Snack, a Fun Size Snickers, a cup of Nata De Coco Mango Pudding, a petite box of Sunmaid Raisins, a Krispies chocolate, a Disney Enchanted pencil, eraser and also a ruler.. They were all 9 party packs that we finished packing for Amnee's classmates + 2 extra packs for Aina and Piqah...

While putting all those items into the party pack, I remember back then when I was at Amnee's age.. I was only enrolled in TADIKA KEMAS.. a kindergarten that only taught the students to read and learn in Bahasa Malaysia, far from teaching the students English language.. However, looking at Amnee now, she's even can talk and communicate with me fluently in proper English at the age of only 5! Amazing is it? Lucky she has my sister as her mother who earns quite a salary plus her father who earns a lot more than her mother.. Combining both salary, the result is a whooping figure!! Being the only child (as for now til her brother is born), both the parents pamper her soo much.. She normally gets what she wants.. Sometimes, I would feel like poking her if she doesn't wanna listen to me.. She's been so lucky!! However, I was not as lucky when I was a kid her age.. I was deprived of almost everything in my yesteryears..

On one occasion when I was in Standard One, I was chosen as one of the performers during the School's Present Give Away, that is to say, Hari Penyampaian Hadiah.. I was gonna play an "Ayam" character in a song called "Aku, Burung, Itik dan Burung" and has to pay for the ever-cute gown with ruffles and laces.. I needed only to pay RM10 for the gown.. I was so excited on the day i was elected and told my mum that I needed to pay RM10. However, I was so dissapointed when my mum told me to back out from the play because she said my father could not afford to pay. I was crying like mad because I was really looking forward to be part of the team. Since I had to obey to my mum's order, I was replaced by the-then classmates, Fadilah.. I envied her so much because she had a chance to wear that super cute lil doll-like dress for the performance.. I was so devastated that I could not take part in any play or performance in which I had to pay for the costumes even for RM10!! For Pete's sake.. I know RM10 is a lot back then but it hurts me soo much when I could never have any chance to live like a normal girl.. No birthday parties, no Barbie dolls, no cute tailor-made dresses, no everything.. And because of that, I ponder for a while when I look at Amnee because she has the chance to experience everything in her life. She has the chance to celebrate her birthday, give away party packs, an expensive custom-made Princess cake and a cute little dress from Sommerset Bay.. Sommerset what? I don't even know that that label ever existed since I've never been exposed to such expensive merchandise.. Amnee even has the chance to wear a pair of shoes from Clarks that cost her parents RM128 per pair. I consider it is still expensive for a teeny tiny pair of booties.. Even though I was deprived of almost everything, I'm glad now that after all these hard years that my family and I had to face, finally we manage to get out from the hard lives..

Since my eldest sister and my second sister had started working, our life has started to become a lot better than before. Thank God to all the "rezeki" that He gave us.. My parents now even can breath easily and calmly because after all these hard years, they managed to see the result now.. What more can make our parents happy than seeing all their children excel in life? I'm not trying to brag here but it is the reality that all 3 of us has finally achieved our dreams and earn good money.. except for me, since I'm still in my chambering period, I can't afford to give my parents money but I promise to myself that once I get the real salary, I will definitely give them most of the monies.. Nothing could repay them for what they have done to raise us all. Thanx to you MAMA and PAPA!! So to all the millenium kids out there, try to appreciate the value of money and all the hard work that your parents had to face in order to give you all these luxurious life you are living in right now.. If not because of your parents, you won't be living life like you all did right now.. Fikir2kan dan selamat beramal! Ahhhh!! I hate spoil brats!!

Oh Crap! New files coming in.. Booring!! Time to go dear squigglers!!
Catch up with u later
Toodles!!
=)